Born2preform's Journals

xxx Another poem xxx

xxx You want to fight xxx

xxx you want to cry xxx

xxx you want to stop the pain inside xxx

Your family doesnt like you

your one big disgrace

your not wanted here

they want you erased

you pack up your things

you walk out the door

its raining of all the possible things

you hate it, your cold

one whole month later you sick and your stoned

your family forgot you

your sad, your alone

xxx your bodys torn up xxx

xxx theres cuts on your face xxx

xxx and that is the storey of my xxx

xxx suicide case xxx

My Poem

Depression hurts

it makes you cry

you wish that you could stay inside

you feel so hurt

you never try

to feel what there is to feel inside

no ones there

theres only you

somtimes you feel like its you life to lose

Some one just died

it just made things worse

theres pain inside, you scream, it hurts

You run to the bathroom to find some relief

you close the door

you turn to the sink

you think for a second

look down inside

you start to cut as you start to cry

You feel some relief

but still you deny

the feelings you still have

kept locked up inside.

Face Burger

Flippy is one crazy little bear........

but i love him

My best freinds...

My best freinds...<33

krista <333
cassie
haley
brittany
ashlee
kelly
kirsten
danielle
brandy
alex .n
alex.a
pricilla
vanessa
vanessa. vega
vanessa vindell
shanice
geraldine
toree
ofelia
lesli
patricia
ashley
andrew.c. 1
andrew.c.2(ashlee's bf)

AH! theres more but i dont feel like thinking of them all

if you want me to add your name to the list just ask me to and i will.....

untitled.....: )

Love's Violent

True, From Me To

You, Rips Your Heart

Out And Leaves You Bleeding With A

Smile On Your FACE!!!

Talking: Now! Tell me

who hasen't thought this at least once in

their life

i know i have and when it happens it sucks.

now i havent really been left bleeding with a smile on my face but

i think the main idea of this is pretty similar to what im thinking.

i hate love, but i love it so HEY! what can you do.

TAKE A CHANCE!

AHH!! this week sucks

4/10/07

AHH!~!! this week is so boring,and its going by super slow

every single one of my freinds are out doing somthing.

well i guess its not as bad as it could be but im pretty sure im dying of bordum

ashlee one of my freinds is out some where, i dont know

brittany another freind of mine is up at my other freinds house in modesto

cant see my freind cassie

and everyone else i either dont fell like seeing or i dont have their number

i cant wait till sombody gets home!!!!!!!

a song written by my freind

I WISH YOU KNEW ME

do you want to know me

would you care to know me

do you know i exist and im

standing here in front of you

trying to get you to know me

i want your guidence i

i need your help

you say you love me but im not sure itll help

what will help me is you picking me up when i fall

id rather be alone then have some one there and not care at all

but now i see i have to be there on my own

without you at all

written by one of my best freinds alyssa

Spoken Words

I Liked Being Wraped Up In Garters And

Corsets I Feel Like My Loves Most Prized

Possesion

Dita Von Teese

i wAs pAnIciNg aT tHE disco

bEfOre yOU wErE

eVEn InviTed

words spoken by me

LIFE IS LIKE

A BOX OF

CHOCOLATE

YOU NEVER

KNOW WHAT

YOUR GONNA

GET

FOREST GUMP

Tierd

Today I woke up at 3:15 in the morning to take my dad to the air port ( he has to go to Arizona for a whole week so I took a drive up to the San Jose airport the drive seemed to take just about forever. when we got there I dropped my dad home and started to drive home but could not seem to find the way out the airport was like a giant maze I got lost there for a second but then found the way on to the free way finally i made my way home to merced only this time the drive seemed to be shorter than the drive up there this morning lets just say im glad to be home . thank you Jesus

stuff

hello I am so bored right now so i decided to type in random sayings off my dove chocolate...

1) Be mischievous it feels good

2) Go to your speacil place

3) wink at sombody that drives past (he or she may be hot)

4)take a chance do somthing risky

there is way more but I really dont want to take the time to type them all out i feel lazy but if you took the time to read this it probably put you to sleep

so hello and good bye